Shouldn't have watched Britney while drinking merlot.....
A bottle of merlot later...I wept for Britney. I wept for me. I wept. I wept. I wept. When you're an emotional wreck anyway and you also happen to have an unusual maternal and unexplainable love for Britney Spears, you shouldn't be watching the Britney Spears documentary while polishing off a bottle of merlot. Just not good looking out. I can't tell you how many times I've hit the backspace key just to correct the typos I've made and I'm barely three sentences in!
I just need to see a therapist. That's all there is too it. I need somebody to sit there and tell me, "It's not you, Kellie. It's THEM!" I don't even care who THEM is! I just want this to not be my fault any more!
My daughter is the coolest, funniest, most preciousest 2-year-old on the planet. She put on her brand new Tinkerbell footie pajamas tonight and ran into the room and proclaimed to me, "I am Tinkerbell!" And you know what? She IS. MY DAUGHTER IS TINKERBELL. And I love her for that. That taught me the hugest lesson right there. I am whatever I think I am. And after this bottle of merlot wears off, I am going to be fabulous. For her. For me. For you. For the universe. For the next man who falls victim to me. I AM FABULOUS. Screw therapy. I just need my own pair of Tinkerbell footie pajamas.
XO
Kellie
I just need to see a therapist. That's all there is too it. I need somebody to sit there and tell me, "It's not you, Kellie. It's THEM!" I don't even care who THEM is! I just want this to not be my fault any more!
My daughter is the coolest, funniest, most preciousest 2-year-old on the planet. She put on her brand new Tinkerbell footie pajamas tonight and ran into the room and proclaimed to me, "I am Tinkerbell!" And you know what? She IS. MY DAUGHTER IS TINKERBELL. And I love her for that. That taught me the hugest lesson right there. I am whatever I think I am. And after this bottle of merlot wears off, I am going to be fabulous. For her. For me. For you. For the universe. For the next man who falls victim to me. I AM FABULOUS. Screw therapy. I just need my own pair of Tinkerbell footie pajamas.
XO
Kellie
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Comment by Sue on December 19, 2008 at 3:29am - Kellie, I cried about Britney too. I feel the same way you do about her and got SO mad when everyone was trash talking her on the show and you were trying to defend her. I also suffer from severe depression and refuse to take meds for it.. #1 I believe it is circumstantial. If things in my life were more in my control and were better I would not feel so depressed and lonely all the time. #2 When I was on anti depressants I stopped being able to feel ANYTHING. No downs, but no ups either. It just wasn't worth it to me. Now I'm off and I have some really bad down times, but then eventually I find my "up" time too.
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Comment by Michelle on December 4, 2008 at 9:13am - Reading that made ME cry! And when I watched Brotney on Good Morning America, I cried! I didnt get to watch her documentary...
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Comment by ~Lydia~ on December 4, 2008 at 8:43am - LOL I love you Kellie! That is so darn cute and sooo true. We ARE who we say we are. This is something I need to practice!
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Comment by Daniy on December 3, 2008 at 8:02pm -
Sounds like you need to put your drinking buddy away. Drinking just makes everything harder, it IS a depressant.
I am not saying a drink now and then is bad.. "A BOTTLE" however is another story. How do you watch a 2 year old after a bottle. They run in way to many circles to have a dizzy Mommy.
Kellie, you just need to stop being so hard on yourself, put the bottle away, and be YOU.
If those men see the real you from the start, they dont have to run away later when the real you shows. You are a better person then you give yourself credit for.
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Comment by Solomon Lemus on December 3, 2008 at 5:38pm - Well you didn't need to go through all of that for you to find that out. I could have told you that you are fabulous.
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Comment by Zachary on December 3, 2008 at 11:24am
- This is amazing. You make my day Kellie! If everyone just kept with that positive attitude that they are whatever they wanna be then life would be fabulous! Stay fabulous! And stay away from any merlot or alcohol while watching documentaries from now on, you never know what kind of emotional strings they'll pull.
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Comment by traci on December 2, 2008 at 8:22pm - Kellie you ROCK, I too felt sad for Britney she really opened yourself up and expressed alot. She too needs some tinkerbell footed pj and the 2 of you have a party.
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Comment by Stephanie on December 2, 2008 at 2:01pm - Hey, Kellie. I don't know if I was just finally in a temporary happy place in my life at the time or if it was the OTC pills I was takeing. I was having a hard time with relationships, weight loss, you name it. My aunt turned me on to St. John's Wart. I went to the local Wal-Mart and picked up a bottle. With in days I could tell my mood was changing. My friends even noticed that I was happier. I hope you find what you'r looking for in life. You seem like you're such a kind and loveing person.
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Comment by Tracy G on December 1, 2008 at 9:05pm - Just clap your hands and believe!!
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Comment by Kathy on December 1, 2008 at 8:51pm -
"And after this bottle of merlot wears off, I am going to be fabulous. For her. For me. For you. For the universe. For the next man who falls victim to me. I AM FABULOUS."
Girl, that quote is going on my refrigerator...right next to my favorite Bible verses!!!! LOL You rock, Kellie.
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