SO disappointed!
I had my calendar all screwed up and I thought I was going to the doctor tomorrow to find out why I'm such an insatiable bitch, but it's not until THURSDAY!!! UGH!!!!! But what if my worst fear is realized?? What if there is absolutely nothing wrong with any of my blood tests and this is my destiny?!?! I have to think positive and hope for the worst.
J-Si and Kinsey got engaged on Valentine's Day, which is wonderful news...now that I actually know about it. I'll be honest. I didn't know what was going on. Kidd and whoever decided to save it and surprise us on the show Monday -- although I don't really know why, but...Anyway, after a morning meeting on Saturday, Kinsey said she had to wait on J-Si to do something for about 10 minutes and would call me and we were all going to go do the lazy river and whatever. So I went back to the room and waited. All day. I had no way to call them. Huge resort. Didn't know where they were. And I could've gone down to one of the pools and looked for them, yes, but it was sexy couple after sexy couple after sexy couple and I just wanted to find my friends and sit in an inflatable donut and drift along aimlessly for an hour and not have sexy, happy, in-your-face and in love couples walking around with their tongues waggling around in each other's mouths -- which is a talent, actually. Walking while French kissing is an art form. But anyway, the point is, I lay in my room reading a book about a child who is murdered and a father blaming God for letting it happen, missing my daughter like crazy, feeling a little bummed about going through my third Valentine's Day in a row without a Valentine, and thinking that nobody wants to hang around me because what I said was true all along -- I'm no fun.
But now that I know what happened, I feel bad for being selfish in my feelings and I do celebrate that J-Si and Kinsey are getting married. And if they'll let me, I'll throw them the hugest engagement party I can afford. It would have been bigger before the stock market crashed, of course, but I'll do what I can!
XO
Kellie
J-Si and Kinsey got engaged on Valentine's Day, which is wonderful news...now that I actually know about it. I'll be honest. I didn't know what was going on. Kidd and whoever decided to save it and surprise us on the show Monday -- although I don't really know why, but...Anyway, after a morning meeting on Saturday, Kinsey said she had to wait on J-Si to do something for about 10 minutes and would call me and we were all going to go do the lazy river and whatever. So I went back to the room and waited. All day. I had no way to call them. Huge resort. Didn't know where they were. And I could've gone down to one of the pools and looked for them, yes, but it was sexy couple after sexy couple after sexy couple and I just wanted to find my friends and sit in an inflatable donut and drift along aimlessly for an hour and not have sexy, happy, in-your-face and in love couples walking around with their tongues waggling around in each other's mouths -- which is a talent, actually. Walking while French kissing is an art form. But anyway, the point is, I lay in my room reading a book about a child who is murdered and a father blaming God for letting it happen, missing my daughter like crazy, feeling a little bummed about going through my third Valentine's Day in a row without a Valentine, and thinking that nobody wants to hang around me because what I said was true all along -- I'm no fun.
But now that I know what happened, I feel bad for being selfish in my feelings and I do celebrate that J-Si and Kinsey are getting married. And if they'll let me, I'll throw them the hugest engagement party I can afford. It would have been bigger before the stock market crashed, of course, but I'll do what I can!
XO
Kellie
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Comment by Summer on February 22, 2009 at 1:08am - I know that this post wasn't really about the book but since someone else brought it up...LoL...I hope that you finish it...It is a very emotional journey and I can only hope at least half of the what it says about God and the way he works is true...I hope you love it as much as I did...
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Comment by TRINA on February 18, 2009 at 8:26am - aww. i know its late ade you don't know me but if youd except can i be your freindly valentine. im not positive how old emma is but i have a 12, 5,&3 year old. when i sometimes feel down and like people forget about me i do things with them. my husband wasnt even my valentine, my kids were.lol. i think a lot of people are having a hard time being happy go lucky, the worlds a depressing place. always try to turn everything into a possitive. i have my first visit with a therapist this week. my positve for this is that it better f^*$^ help dang it. lol
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Comment by Susan on February 17, 2009 at 10:42pm - Did you finish the book? I really want to read it. Don't feel bad about Valentine's Day. I went to a Single Girl's Party with wine and chocolates. We would have loved to have you there! You are so funny!
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Comment by Nicholas on February 17, 2009 at 3:02pm - Don't stress Kellie. Everyone gets upset when plans are made and you wait and wait and wait and don't find out until after-the-fact what happened. I'm sure J-Si will forgive you no matter what. He knows you like him because he's still employed. hahaha
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Comment by Roxanna on February 17, 2009 at 12:32pm - So were you reading The Shack? (LOL...just saw that question above...)
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Comment by catherine M. on February 17, 2009 at 9:26am
- hey kelly was the name of that book The Shack
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Comment by Tiffany on February 17, 2009 at 8:22am - I am so there with you. My "rut" has been off and on for three years. God Bless Us.
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Comment by Tiffany on February 17, 2009 at 8:17am - aww that is truly sweet of you to throw them an engagement party! You have a beautiful daughter and you are a wonderful and beautiful woman! I hope you get the answers you are looking for from the doctor. God Bless!
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Comment by Shane G on February 17, 2009 at 5:31am - Kellie, I hate to say this but your in a rut! I have a suggestion. Maybe you can make arrangements to put yourself in a less fortunate situation for awhile. Maybe take a week to live in a crappy apartment, work at a crappy job or something that would get you outside your comfort zone for a bit. It may just put your whole perspective back together and you would be happier about what you have! I used to gripe all the time cause my job sucked, my apartment sucked, I had no single friends to hang out with so I sat at home alot. I got my ankles hurt and couldn't work, so I wound up at my parents for 4 months. Let me tell you, when I got back to my old life, I loved it!!
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