I feel a cold coming on which is awesome and I always welcome sickness…I don’t understand how it’s possible for me to try and be as healthy as possible and still get sick. I swear ever since I had mono in high school, my immune system has left my body completely. I worked out yesterday and decided to get a fresh green juice with kale and spinach and oranges and other healthy things that are hard to swallow in liquid form. The smoothie guy offered me a shot of ginger, saying that is the cure all to being sick. Well, it was basically like taking down a shot of 151. It burned and I could feel it traveling through my body trying to find a way to come back up and out. It also gave me so much energy that I wasn’t able to sleep at all which of course is helpful when you’re getting sick.

Holly is sick too and I’m worried that it might be the West Nile virus. Do people still get this? We leave the patio door open for Maximus every day and I think a mosquito family has moved in. Holly, Maximus and I spent our night doctoring our bug bites. Holly tends to be paranoid and a hypochondriac and she has rubbed off on me so much that I am now concerned Maximus scabs are actually cancerous tumor sores he keeps scratching. He has lost a considerable amount of weight in a short period of time and I know it’s not due to any kind of intense fitness regimen. Maximus being sick is really not something I could mentally handle right now.

As I get another year older I still don’t feel all that much wiser. I said in a previous blog that I try and reflect on lessons learned over the course of the last year and this year, all I can think of is that I know wholeheartedly I don’t want a wedding. EVER. It seems like that is the only thing that I feel confident about. All of my girlfriends are starting to marry off and hearing stories from some of the weddings terrifies me and makes me sick. A bride’s own bridesmaids criticizing her dress as she walks down the aisle? Really? I just feel so far from understanding why girls talk about all the things they wouldn’t have/do at their own wedding. Guess what? It’s not your wedding, it’s your friend’s and maybe she loves that dress and those flowers and those colors and it’s her day. It really makes me so upset. For someone that doesn’t even want a wedding, I still want my friends to have the best day of their lives without the judging from other girls who have yet to walk down the aisle themselves. I can’t determine if that’s the number one reason I never want to marry or if it’s because of my family disaster that would make everyone uncomfortable…