I’m too old to go out, but too young to stay home:( In the words of Kanye West, “I don’t understand it brah”. I have hit that weird place in my life where I simply have NO desire to go out drinking at bars until 2 am. I actually don’t even want to go out drinking period. Yet, staying home alone watching Netflix and Dateline every Friday night is quickly losing its luster as well. I know you’re probably going to say, “Jenna, just go out to be social and don’t drink.” The thing is, I really hate drunk people when I’m sober. I find drunk people to be more annoying than screaming babies.
I am actually totally happy with my life for the most part. I love waking up weekend mornings, feeling refreshed and eager to go to the gym and be productive. For the past few months, I have been doing the whole, get dressed and go somewhere new for dinner with friends, then go home thing. That is at least some sort of respite for the cabin fever I face. I think I have been dealing with the after effects of losing Maximus more lately than normal. I have about one day a week where I overthink about him after seeing a reminder and I lose it for about 60 seconds. I really am doing surprisingly well considering the grief I normally feel over the loss of things. I think I just really have a void I need to fill. Maximus was such a creative outlet for me. He got me up and out going on walks, obviously made me laugh like a crazy person and provided so many funny photo situations. I am definitely nowhere near ready to get another dog, so what else?
I tried out some adult coloring books. I heard they were supposed to be stress relieving. Ehhhh. Those just give more anxiety because I feel pressure to stay in the lines and finish. Pie making was great for a night, but I have to chill on the baked goods before winter bod takes over. So I’m 0-2 at my attempt to find a new hobby. Help! What can I do alone that is somewhat social and doesn’t result in a hangover?