Date night with the NU CHICK was pretty fun. It was my first time I had a date that was 100% taxi cab. But I was planning ahead and I wasn’t sure how much wine would be consumed. It started out with a cab to a nice steakhouse. a couple hundred bucks later, we hopped into another cab and headed to a comedy club on the other side of town. The featured comedian was a dude named Michael McDonald. I thought he was a Doobie Brother or something? Anyway, we watched the show and there was a little hand holding and some laughing. From there, we walked to a bar down the street and had a drink at a small hole in the wall bar that I used to go to a long time ago. And from there, we cabbed it back to my bar. All in All, it was a good time.
So, why did I not hear from her the next day? She went out of town for a little bit and said she didn’t get very good reception in the town she was in. I asked her if she had a secret life going on that she wasn’t telling me about. Oh well. I guess I will take her word for it.
Fathers day was fun, but not what I originally expected. I was going to take my dad to church and to lunch after. Well, I went to pick up my dad and he was already dressed. I kinda felt bad for being a little bit late. We were trying to leave when he started feeling bad and we decided to just stay home. My mom made some breakfast and we just sat at the table together and had a home cooked meal. “Time spent” is what my dad really wants at this point in his life. So, I spent a few hours just chilling at the house, eating talking and sleeping. He always spent time with us as kids. Sure he was working trying to provide for his family and he was doing a great job at it. Not once do I remember him ever complaining about business being slow or things not going well. Since I am in business, I know there were problem days or problem weeks. Maybe he had problem months or even years. But I never remember him showing any form of weakness. He shielded us from all of that. that’s why I will always feel the guilt of not being the dad that I should have been. That is just one of those mistakes that will last a lifetime with me (and with them). Korey and I have a great relationship now. But Payton and I got off to a bad start and that is all my fault. So, I really can’t blame him for not calling me on fathers day. I wasn’t a good father. In fact, I wasn’t a father at all. I was what J-si refers to as a bio-dad. Its so odd to have 2 people in the same situation (but on opposite sides) in the same room everyday. I missed out which in turn made him miss out. I robbed him of a relationship and he never had a say in it. And now, he is the one that is left with anger in his heart. We still talk from time to time but its far from the relationship that I have with my dad. Maybe someday.